Hard to Watch ...

Have you ever watched something and then declared, "That was hard to watch." Sometimes that is because the game, show, movie, play or program was bad, sometimes it is because you would rather have been doing something else and sometimes it is because you think "that should have been me". Last night I watched a District championship volleyball match and just kept thinking that should have been us. The night before we lost a tough 4 game match against a team we had beaten twice earlier in the season. No sour grapes, they beat us fair and square, but you just had a sense that we should have won. But as the old saying goes, "if ifs and buts were candies and nuts we'd all have a merry Christmas". (just be careful if you try to say that fast).

The match I watched was very good, it was exciting, it was a come from behind, 5 game, nail biter. But it was hard to watch because I just kept thinking it should have been us.

That got me to thinking about my relationship with Christ (hey, I'm a pastor, I look for illustrations everywhere). I wonder how often Christ looks at my life, my use of time, the things I do and thinks "it should have been me". That the things that occupy my thoughts and time are not always what they should be and I imagine there are many times the Lord watches with regret thinking "that should be my time".

How about you? Are you "hard to watch" sometimes?